"The Hour in the Wind" - music video release

Frame from "The Hour in the Wind" music video (released December 15, 2024)

"This song is a musical mental process to help me find peace in the midst of change."

- Trinity Celese 2020

"The Hour in the Wind": A slightly sorrowful, yet hopeful tune I wrote back in 2018.

The story of how I wrote this song is quite simple and yet very dear and near to my heart. Nowadays I can easily overthink my creative process and become obsessed with the meaning of a piece (both musically and artistically). Sometimes I come to the point where I am trying to be so meaningful that the piece it loses meaning. Whereas, I believe I am coming to realize that, whilst I enjoy being intentional with the meaning of a piece, I would like to grow in letting that go just enough that I'm still able to consistently enjoy the process of creation. I'm reminded, as I look back on when I wrote this song, that there is such a beauty in letting go when being creative. It's good to plan out one's days; to have discipline and structure as a creative. However, when that structure and discipline chokes one's creativity, I think that is grounds for a shift in the tension.

All that to say, this song was written in 2018 in the dance studio at a university. I was working at the university for a few weeks that summer teaching fencing to kids for a summer camp. I really enjoyed the job. It was so fun and playful, yet challenging and engaging. I find fencing to be a really interesting sport and it was hilarious to see kids take plastic swords and sing the theme to Star Wars as they told each other that they weren't each others' father. Haha.

I believe I worked for three weeks that summer, and as the camp was coming to a close I remember having a deep feeling of sadness. I enjoyed working with the kids and my colleagues so much. The idea of this time coming to an end made me feel so sad and emotional. I wasn't sure how to deal with this emotion. In my teen years my emotions could feel quite overwhelming and I wasn't mature enough to see a world past that current moment of emotional intensity. So I did what I usually did in high school when I had big feelings, I wrote a song about it.

FUN FACT: The set of the music video for this song is actually a fun reflection of the place where I originally wrote this song. During my work at the summer camp I often came to work early before anyone else arrived. Then I would sit in the middle of the dance studio in the dark and continue writing my little tune.

My time working at this summer camp was the inspiration for the opening lyrics for this song, "Why, when good things begin, must they come to an end?" In my songs I am often wrestling with something. Some idea, feeling, or concept. Many times it has been that I have been wrestling with something negative that I have felt a bit hopeless about. So my songs are often structured with my writing about his negative feeling followed by an attempt to understand, come to terms with, or redeem that feeling/situation. It's the same with this song with the lyrics that comes directly after the opening line: "But I see now why, that if they never ended they wouldn't be so beautiful now." And it's true. Even though it is a difficult thing to grasp, the beginning of things and the ending of things can be both beautiful and sorrowful - and that's ok.

This song helped me to deal with my experience of a good thing coming to an end. I hope that it also touches your heart to think about and appreciate all the beautiful things in your life that have started. As well as be grateful for the wonderful things in your life that were.

Don't waist your days wishing you had more time.

Plan for tomorrow, then live for today.

And if you don't know what that means or how that looks, then spend some time trying to figure it out.

Blessings to all and may the new year plant hearts of joy and gratitude,

Trinity : )